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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

I would love to go out, leave the organization, and never look back. However, I am only 16 and in way too deep. Plus I've become close to some people that have the serious possibility to change. I mean the most important person in my life is a girl the same age as me trying to find new friends in the organization because her family always ruined other relationships for her. I can't just leave that's near immpossible for me. So I dunno. However, the idea of a new Jehovah's Witness organization (I think that's what your trying to do maybe ThaiPoes, no offense.) would be kinda liein to myself. I mean I hate it deeply and I mean I don't know if it would work out because even if elders are looking for a new light or some sense they are still elders and they still have the ideas in their heads. Might be hard to work out. But I mean still I'm way too young to do anything.

Ya I know 16 is like an adult but I've been pushed back all of my life. I SERIOUSLY feel I'm between the age of 12-13, except I think I whole lot more.

Anyways, gotta thank everybody again for the support. I doubt I'll ever leave these forums, I have so much to say.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

I'm sorry for expressing fun. I guess I was in a relaxed cong and they didn't beat all the fun spirit out of me lol. Man I must really be going to the wrong parties. Need to express my rebellious attitude. Bring down a few people with me =). I'm going to so try to get my brother out of the slump and actually date REAL women. Not women getting wet over the hours you spent out in field service, oh ya thats really gonna support a family. It's sad really... I just wish a crooked (and when I say crooked I really mean un-crooked since they will destroy the congregation) official is elected when the grandfather times die off from the governing body. All will be well then. After that a slow recovery for Jehovah's Witnesses shall commence. I dream for that day. I can finally talk to the girl I like in the organization without everybody thinking she's about to have my baby soon. Sometimes I wish they did though...

DAMN YOU DEVIL!!! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO FINE!!!!!!!!

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Will the World ever Die?

by blacksheep in

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during the last few years, i've progressively observed a phenomenon which i hadn't really seen before in my jw mother.

lately she's been talking about her will, about wanting to get long term care insurance for herself and my dad so they won't be a burden on us kids.... it's like she knows she's going to eventually die in "this system.

" what happened to armageddon's right around the corner??.

Obviously Secret

Yeah, I've been seeing more and more witnesses actually planning for the future. My mom going to school for nursing but still make me read accounts about how further education is wrong wrong wrong. Hypocrit. However, the 'world' will eventually die, unless humans come up with some ingenius way to stop the sun from cooling down or from killing ourselves in a huge nuclear holocaust.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

I shouldn't have said I was afraid of sex, now my danger zone will never be tampered with by the wonderful ladies in these forums, and I'm not being sarcastic even though it may not sound that way. I keed around alot, keeps me from crying.

ANYWAYS ya it is said ain't it? It's weird sex is so bad until you get married. Like saying I do makes your sex organs magically work correct and you will not feel guilty for it. I just came back from the Sunday meeting with a smile on my face. The first time I was actually happy in the Kingdom Hall for a very very long time. Just looking at the speaker made me laugh. Opened my eyes up widely. I decided to have some fun and try to see if I can predict what he was going to say. He said something like, "We must safe-gaurd our heart from the evil temptations of this demonic world." Then I thought to myself, "Watch he say, "Because Satan is working in mysterious ways in our entertainment, our music, movies." Lol guess what he said, "Because Satan is working hard in mysterious ways in our entertainment, such as: music, video games, and movies." The same o' rap it seems. Oh and believe me I'll get over that afraid of sex thing. Just kinda hard when your parents tell you about her distant friend that had sex and contracted AIDS and died a horrible horrible death. What Kind of mess is that. Like I'm always going to die if I have sex. Anyways, it's all craptacular.

And yes, I was still believed in what my parents said a little even a week ago, but I'm trying to talk to him more but I'm SUPER shy so it's half way immpossible for me to even when I really want to try. Always think of him killing himself, he has his moods sometimes. So ya any advice would be advised.

P.S. EVERYBODY FORGET I SAID I WAS AFRAID OF SEX! SEX IS GOOD!... Damn I need to get some. No wonder my brother got disfellowshipped he couldn't help it. He could have hid it from me better though, seeing a big folder named disfellowshipped and it had another folder inside the folder which said Tools to Control the erge to Masterbate. Ruining a person's life because he relieved himself for a few seconds from oppressive sex laws that was forced on him all of his 26 years of life.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

Yes. I am seeing it through my brother right now. He was disfellowshipped a good two and a half years ago. Hearing people talk about how the world took him over since it's taking so long for him to be reinstated. My own parents shun him from anything family orinted. I asked my parents, "Do you think we should start doing more things with Bryan? (my brother) He is going through alot and he has nobody to depend on." they of course said, "Jehovah will see him through, plus, he brung it upon himself." My heart totally dropped when I heard that. I just see it in my brothers eyes, everytime he runs out the meeting teary eyed and drives away and my whole family ignores it. He is going through serious hell.

The JW people are like an old suit that you got for the convention about 6 years ago. You got it to look good for God. However, it slowly goes into the abyss of ugly cloths that you wear when there's nothing else to wear. See? Starts off with good intentions and it ends up being a routine that you secretly hate yet you don't have anything else to wear. I see so many JWs like the suit, start off with good intentions and end up slowly going into the abyss of being a JW because there is absolutely nothing else you can put on..

I know you hate it mom, I was awake when you had that arguement with dad 2 years ago. Lol Its saddening to know that I was born into this world by a man who's penis can on go 5 inches. Sad sad sad.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

Wow spent the whole night awake and intent searching through the forums. The meeting is about to start also lol. Havent even skimmed over my watchtower. My parents will think I'm the devil... litterally.

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What happened to me?

by boa in

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a few years ago....before i went to bethel....i was very troubled in mind and heart and quite fervently prayed to jehovah asking for help.....i really really poured my heart out when all of a sudden...... i went completely catatonic (i was lying down in bed on my back).

i was still concious, but i felt like i was no longer a part of my body and in fact don't think i could've moved if i'd tried to.....it was very strange and i believe its only happened once since then (while during a heartfelt prayer).

has this happened to any of you?.

Obviously Secret

Oh yes Lucid Dreaming. I have learned to slightly control when and how my lucid dreams go, but most of the time they just end up going out of wack and i become tired in the morning.

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Our first birhtday!!!

by beaker in

yesterday i had my kids for the weekend.

it was my 7 year old boy's birthday.

the kids live with the ex who is still a jw so she is still pushing the hard line with the kids.

Obviously Secret

That is the one thing I wanted most in life, after a wife that i love and kids of course. To have a birthday with like so many friends around and so happy and loving life, so cool. However I guess keeping yourself from killing yourself and having some what of a good life is too pagan for the JWs. I actually asked this one time when i was twelve to my mom, "Hey mom, can't I have a party even if it's not on my birthday?" And she said, "No of course not, that is just like having a birthday and birthdays are a pagan belief." Then I had to read the read the watchtowers for a good hour or so.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

Ya it is sad really. Just sitting down and just contemplating on the attitudes some of the people have in the kingdom hall. I just don't know. The ones that are the most unique are the ones that are farthest away from the "truth". Principles are good but they just totally messed it up. Well hope we can become friends Lauar and everybody else on this board. I need to summon up the strength and actually start talking to people.

Come on people think about it. There are MILLIONS of people following this thing. People that could be great people that will most likely find the cure for AIDs or many cancers or something. And it feels like it's just a waste when they die believing in men and not their true beliefs. Looking at the people I care about that's in the organization I just think about how great they could be but its always beaten down because those are thoughts of the world. I mean the organization freakin I don't want to sound weird but I'm practically afraid of sex. I want to have it like wild but when i think about it it always seems that I'm taking advantage of the person or I'm hurting the person. Come on I know that's not a good quality to have. Oh that's going to be a great quality in the New World, trying to stop everybody from having sex because I feel that they are hurting the person. Worse thing is I feel like I can never recover from it, breaks my heart in a way. Just seeing the people masses of them secretly depressed living lies. Man It almost makes me want to be the Governing Body and secretly Tear it down. That's too much work though lol.

Anyways, wish I can become life long friends with the people here because they have way more sense than the mindless double lived drones I see every sunday, saturday, and wednesday.

P.S. One thing I enjoy majorly is to go to the district conventions or what not and just look at the people. I hear a few swears followed by an woops, love those. And seeing the surprised STUNNED faces after they said it. Good times.

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New Age Jehovah's Witness Youth

by Obviously Secret in

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i'm new to the forums so i just wanted to say hi.

kind of nervous at the moment.. i'm one of the jehovah's witness kids that is looking for the whole truth.

i go to the meetings and have my own problems with the organization but i do believe in alot of it's beliefs.. since i got that out the way i wanted to see what other people think about the newer jehovah's witness teens.

Obviously Secret

Well My kingdom hall is good at hiding things. Lol I have so many stories.. One time when I was in my "hate the world phase" about a year and a half ago (hey don't think I'm weird from what im about to say, come on ive been traumatized), I smoked a fatty and was high during the whole meeting. I don't smoke anymore of course since plenty of people get killed from delivering accross the country so i can have a few fake happy times, I quit now. But anyways I was walking with my eyes red and staggering in my step and I saw my drunk of a dad, he is an elder and he had mad drinking binge before the meeting and he was wasted for sure, good thing he is a quiet drunk. So we like totally bumped into each other and I fell and he helped me up, tried to at least. And I looked at him and his eyes were red and lowered and mine were too and he said, "Hey son, you got ahold of my beer?" And my smart butt came up and said, "Whoa dad when did you smoke weed too" Lol we cracked up and he totally forgot that that happened. I know other people knew he was drunk but he is one of the Cool Elders so nobody would want to do anything to mess up his reputation.

Man I gotta admit, I had some good times. Too bad the good times was about how corrupt and hypocritcal they are and not the actual truth.

Oh ya I commited like the worse of worse of worse of sins. I "wanked" myself good in one of the restrooms in the kingdom hall. Hey I was 11! Lol that's like dissfellowshipped times twenty. I have more manners now of course though.